Well little N this week you turned one and I really can’t believe it. It’s been a year of ups, downs, heartache and unbelievable joy. You really are one in a million.
We had a bumpy start to the year, the first couple of days added a few extra grey hairs to both your Dada and I, followed by 12 weeks of colic that made me feel like a failure as a Mama and left me wondering if we were ever going to figure out how to get along without one of us in tears.
In the last year I’ve reached despair, a level of exhaustion I didn’t know was possible and my patience has been truly tested, but I wouldn’t change any of it, because we’ve made it through the tough times, the bad days and difficult nights together.
It’s definitely been a year that we won’t forget, you’ve already reached so many milestones that we’ve barely been able to keep up – you can walk, run, climb stairs and you’re desperately trying to talk, but don’t rush, I can’t keep up with how fast you’re changing and I want to hold on to you as my baby just a little longer.
In such a short time you’ve already seen and done so much, here are a few highlights…
- You’ve made some good friends – Henry, Oliver, Archie, Pheobe, Freya, Alba and Ellie, who have been a big part of our year, and hopefully our future too. I’ve watched you grow up with them at baby groups and playdates, and it’s been amazing to see how you’ve all changed
- You’ve started nursery two mornings a week – I know I’m a stay-at-home Mama right now, but you’re part of a special ‘military brat’ club little N. So, at times life is going to be a little tough and you will need to learn to be strong, brave, flexible and resilient. Nursery is a chance for you to learn to adapt to new surroundings, new people and not have mama by your side. You’re already a confident little trooper, and although you cry when I leave you, you also cry when I pick you up!
- You’ve been on your first holiday to Mexico and you loved swimming every day, trying new foods and spending time bonding with Dada
- You’ve smashed a kitchen measuring jug, Dada’s whisky decanter, eaten a few of your books, regularly emptied the kitchen cupboards, cleared the bookcase more times than we can count and pulled a few baubles off the Christmas tree – such a cheeky monkey!
Without you little N, life would definitely be a little more organised, a little less chaotic but a lot less exciting too.
So, my little N, who will soon be bigger than me, braver than me and stronger than me in so many ways, this is what I want to teach you, what I want you to remember growing up and my hopes for the man you will become…
- Always be yourself
- Respect yourself, if you don’t, others won’t either
- Great love and great achievements involve great risks. Take them
- Be strong enough to stand alone, smart enough to know when you need help, and be brave enough to ask for it
- Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck
- Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship
- Take responsibility for all your actions
- Give people a second chance, but not a third
- Be bold and courageous, when you look back at your life you will regret the things you didn’t do more than the ones that you did
- Marry only for love and send her flowers, think of a reason later
- If you HAVE to fight, punch first and punch hard
- Respect is earned. Honesty is appreciated. Trust is gained. Loyalty is returned
- You’re going to make mistakes, but everything happens for a reason, you’ll learn something, recover and come back better than ever
- Save for things that matter, don’t buy stuff you don’t need
- If a relationship has to be secret, you shouldn’t be in it
- The things that make you different are what make you extraordinary
- Follow your curiosity
- Not everyone will make it to your future, some people are just passing through to teach you lessons in life
- Your knowledge and education is something that nobody can take away from you
- You can always come home.
And equally as important, but a little less interesting…
- Pay off your credit cards every month
- Save for retirement, starting with your first paycheck
- Never lie to your doctor
- Make time for your Mama on your birthday, it’s an important day for me too!
I know I’m not a perfect parent, I’ll let you down and make mistakes. I’ll say one thing when I should have said another. But always remember I love you…fiercely.
Love you always little N,